Finally.

I got my bangs. I slightly love them. I hope you all do too.

You win some, You lose some

So this summer, I did go to Jersey and Arizona but not California or New York I didn't make it to the top of the Statue of liberty or Niagara Falls or Coit Tower. However, I did do some other things to make up for it. I made it to Mt. Rushmore!....

and Carthage....

and Nauvoo......

and the arch in St. Louis (my favorite).....

and the Grand Canyon!!!!!

I had fun everywhere that I went. I loved getting to see so many of my friends along the way and of course I loved spending time at the Jersey shore! I don't see any vacations in my near future so this will have to last for a while. My two favorite things were Mt. Rushmore with Stephen and the arch in St. Louis with my friend Erica.

Doug Hutchinson and Courtney Stodden

I can admit, even though I am slightly ashamed that I am caught up in this Doug Hutchinson and Courtney Stodden marriage scandal. After watching Anderson Cooper I feel completely convinced that it was true love that prompted them to get married in front of that little white chapel in Vegas. Who cares that he's 51 and she's 16?? Who cares that she makes the most disgusting sexy faces I've ever seen?? I refuse to stand in the way of true love.

What's a girl got to do?

Dedication in East of Eden

Dedication from The Little Prince

I have two favorite books: The Little Prince and East of Eden (I'll admit I stole that one from Emily James but I love it now).

One of my most favorite parts of each of those books is the dedication. They both reflect such love and respect for the person they are dedicating the book to. I want someone to dedicate me a book!! I want someone to appreciate my friendship so much that they include me in their book. Hell I would love it if someone fell in love with me and then dedicated a book to me! At this point I'd take damn near any dedication.Even if it just said " To Nat, the most annoying friend I've ever had." I'd shed some tears over that. Seriously.

What's a girl got to do?? Should I make more english major friends/journalism friends/ writer friends?? Should I marry a writer??? Although I can already tell you our personalities won't match. What's the best way to be on someone's dedication page??

It's been too long

It's been way too long since I posted! It's not because I haven't had ideas but because every time I sit down to post something I fall asleep! I don't know how I've managed to be busy this summer but thank goodness I have. That will make my summer vacation even better!

Since I've last posted I've finished one more class and started another one. Stephen has been to town twice visiting a week each time, I got to spend a couple hours with Babs last week, and Janelle is now visiting for two weeks. So I got to see all three of my best friends in a matter of weeks. It's been great. Except for Janelle and Stephen are always encouraging me to not go to work. It's hard to be responsible!!!

I'll try to catch up on all my post ideas in the next couple days. Hopefully you won't be as bored by them as I think you will. Let's start with 4 of July weekend.

My fourth of July weekend was great. It started with Rachelle and ended with Janelle with a whole lot of Stephen in between. Oh, and I can't forget Amanda! There was swimming involved, lots of fireworks, ALOT of laughter, a delicious strawberry shortcake (and I don't even like strawberry shortcake) an exciting Bees game with tons of churros and hot dogs, four wheeling, and the two cuddliest kids on the planet. I was loving life and America!

Man up

In less than 2 days I have finally realized, I cry a lot. Maybe too much. Who knew?? I mean, all my friends knew. But I sure didn't.

And this is how the realization came to me.

***pick up phone-call Amber***

Amber: Hey, what's up

Nat: nothing, I was just calling to tell you that you're a great friend.

Amber: Thanks Nat, that's sweet. What made you say that?

Nat: welllll... **voice shakes**... I was just thinking you know. You never make me feel like I am not important just cz I don't live in Jersey, and every time we talk I still feel like we are best friends.. and I just....**tears** I'm just so grateful cz not everyone is like that. And I like that I can call you and still talk to you about everything...and.....I just***more tears****

Amber: NATTTTTTT. Why are you crying!!??

Nat: I can't help it!!

Amber: Oh my goshhhhh. I can't.

Nat: well f**k you!

Amber: Well, at least you aren't crying anymore.

AHAHAHAHA. Any type of emotion makes Amber uncomfortable. But she's right. All that crying wasn't called for!!

2nd time I realized:

This morning I called Em because I had a nightmare that she was in a car crash. She called me back and told me she was okay and she wasn't in a car crash. After we hung up I had to cry a little bit cz I was so glad she was okay.

LMAO. Seriously, what is wrong with me?? When I think about all the crying I do, I sit back and laugh because I think, why did I cry about that? It's not all like emotional sobbing. A couple tears here and there. But still. I need to man the hell up.

**However, when Im crying cz my feelings are hurt. That's not bad crying or too much crying. That's legitimate. I won't ever try to tone that down.**

Glory Glory Hallelujah

I know that no one probably cares but I am so excited right now. It's 4:15 and it's the first Wednesday since classes first started last August that I can go home at the decent hour of 5 pm!

Free at last, Free at last!! I don't even know what to do. I can finally start going to my dinner groups. I can finally hit the go karts and the batting cages and actually use my pass. Don't get me wrong, there will still be some nights where I stay later doing my homework but I don't have to stay on campus until 8 Monday through Thursday!!!

And in two weeks I get my Tuesday and Thursday nights back! I did consider adding another night class for 2nd block, but after the relief I feel today. Hell to the no. I can actually hang out with my friends and go outside and do things!! I'll just suck it up and take it in the fall.

Thank you Jesus.

I might even go home and go for a freaking jog, that's how alive I feel.

(pause)

Maybe.....